In her new book “Hungry”, Renn, 23, chronicles the heart palpitations, excessive water retention, clumps of hair that would fall out and loss of her menstrual cycle, as she struggled to slim down to the unrealistic sample sizes.
“I honestly couldn’t feel myself, I would have to literally count the veins on my arm when looking in mirror for reassurance that I was still standing in the same place that I was yesterday,” Fox news quoted her as saying.
But she knew she had hit rock bottom when at just 16 years old and living in London, she forced herself to do laps in an unheated pool at 5 a.m. in the middle of winter.
“I sat on the edge psyching myself up, forcing myself to get into the pool. Eventually I just threw myself in,” she recalled.
“I made myself do laps for over an hour; I was screaming and sobbing the whole time. I just had this image of myself on the runway…” she said.
Renn does not hold the industry responsible for her life-threatening disease and assured that her agents, photographers and colleagues embraced her decision to move into plus size modelling in order to recover a few years ago.
“I don’t blame anyone, I made the decision to be a model and to have an eating disorder, and I was prepared to do anything to accomplish my dream,” she said.
“I thank the experience taught me everything to appreciate myself today,” she explained.
She also added that her newfound female curves in the size 12-plus arena have not only given her comfort and confidence but her career has sky-rocketed. (ANI)
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